.. This is goodbye.

Well, I have had a long run on Blogger. I am once again switching blog sites. I am so thankful for this blog because it has truly been an outlet for me through the good and the bad. I also have met some pretty wonderful people through blogging. I hope to continue on doing so with my other blog, which is now:

New Blog

Love.

Alexander McQueen

We have truly lost one of the most influential and amazing artist of our time.

May his soul rest in peace.

“I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken - and I’d rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.”

- Margaret Mitchell

'Be still, and know that I am God.'
- Psalm 46:10

- I experienced something different today. It was difficult for a few minutes.. before, during and after. When I came back home, I decided to try to not think about what I had just spoke of.. but of course, I did. Instead of staying inside of this beautiful apartment that sometimes feels like a cave, I went outside to just sit and get all of my messy thoughts in order. I wasn't exactly sad or upset, but I was a bit emotional, which was understandable at this moment. I turned my head towards the sky, and it was completely silent right then. I just stared up at the sky, and this verse came to me. This is one of my favorites, and when I thought of it today.. with complete silence surrounding me and looking at the sky, it was perfection. I felt a weight taken off of my chest. -

Jenny: Why are you so good to me?

Forrest: You’re my girl.

Jenny: I’ll always be your girl.

I sometimes think I live in a dreamworld but then reality hits. I like to pretend. I like my mind to race. I like the feeling of trying to breath instead of breathing coming easy. My chest gets heavy and tight, at times.. but that's life. I like to feel. One day, it will all be gone. I want to feel it all before my time comes to an end. Even if it hurts.

“A friend can tell you things you don’t want to tell yourself.”

— Frances Ward Weller

Last Minutes with ODEN from phos pictures on Vimeo.

This is so strange. Right after I posted the entry about my dog, I came across this video on another blog. I cried the whole time. So heartbreaking but amazing.

Photo via 1773

I saw this photo today, and it made me miss my Auggie so much. As lame as this may sound, I remember when I used to cry or get upset.. he would know. No kidding. I would go upstairs to my room and all of a sudden I would hear a little whimpering and sniffing under my door. I would open the door, and he would pop up, this little fat precious puppy. He would just look at me, then run and jump on my bed, sit with me and look at me until I was better. Sounds so stupid, I know.. but it actually meant everything to me. I would talk to him and pretend he was listening (he really was) and then I would fall asleep with him snoring right next to me. I remember a time in my life that was very difficult. I was the only child living at home, and I had to be strong for others. I had good friends, but I still felt completely alone in my struggle and pain. I depended on Auggie. He made me forget things when I looked at him, or when he would fall over or get excited to see me. But he also brought me comfort during the long nights when I couldn't sleep because all that was on my mind was losing someone I love so dearly. Auggie would stay right next to me. He wouldn't wake up until I woke up. He knew something was wrong, and he wasn't going to let me get down.

It is amazing what God creates. And it is so incredible to think of what/who our hearts love and the reasons why.. a puppy has meant more to me in my life than most people. I will always carry him in my heart.

Meet my friend Donald and weird voices/faces..

Lovely.

"Unable are the loved to die. For love is immortality."
- Emily Dickinson



My body is sore and aches, but I am happy.

I like the boys that can dance..

So good. Drew and I are starting Hip Hop classes next week. I'm so excited. asdfhalsdfs!

Drake Remix

So my dear friend, Aaron, knows my obsession with Drake. He sent me this remix of "Forever" today.
So so good. Listen and enjoy.
PS. There may be words that might offend you. Just FYI

I miss her.