Of course, I constantly miss home. I really never thought I would come to miss Arkansas to this extent in my life, but if you are from the area.. you know exactly why I miss it. And if you have amazing, beautiful people who have been in your life for so long.. you also know why I miss being there with them.
Missing home can get hard, at times.. but it makes me smile. Knowing that I still have that 'feeling' when it comes to my home and the people I love, reminds me how incredible my life has been and still is.
Things are constantly changing within my life, and I could not be more excited. I feel I am growing up with every day that comes and goes. Which that can be scary, but also it can be a beautiful aspect of life. I want to be a person who accepts the growing process of being a human being and tries to find the beauty within the journey. From what my parents have told me, the best moments in your life come later.. finding that one true love, having children, watching your children grow, and much more. Although, we all know as we get older there are certain aspects of life that happen that can be heart breaking, I believe we should still try to learning how to find the beauty and happiness even in those situations. Life is this funny, confusing, beautiful, strange thing to me. I constantly think about it. Why we are here? What happens next? What happens in the end?.. It's a never ending wondering process for me. All I know from this constant wondering is that I want to live a life full of love and happiness. Sounds cliche, I know.. but many people do not live such ways.
I'm in the process of learning how to let things roll off my back, for the lack of better wording.. hah. I don't want to be concerned with what the person standing next to me thinks of me. The only people that matter to me, love me for what I have become, and they are the only ones that mean anything. Making a bad grade on a test is not the end of the world, although sometimes I think it is.. :) I'm getting better. Not having this or that, is fine with me. Of course, I would love to have certain things, but I no longer depend on materialistic objects to make me who I am. I have a brain, a good one (I believe), I can voice my own opinions, I'm healthy, I have a beautiful family, I am loved, and I love.. I'm happy. Life is beautiful, and I am determined to keep it that way.
Another reason why I'm smiling today:
I received a text today in my class this morning. It is by far, the best text I have ever received:
"We love you in a place where there is no space and time" - Love Dad and Mom